Watched a documentary (well, started it but couldn’t finish) about eating disorders and my first thought about some of the patients was “she’s not even that thin”.
That’s fucked up. And I know personally that you can have EDs without being thin. It’s mental. It’s the battle that’s there. And it’s always there. And I’m sitting here watching this girl talk about how her mom has an ED too and they used to fuel each other’s obsessions.
That is my worst fear. That is why I eat. That is why I lift weights and give myself a break and try to find something beautiful about myself every day.
Cause I want to have a child someday and I do not want to be responsible for fucking up her or his body image.
That’s a lot of pressure :/
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I love summer so much - my life is so busy with all my favorite things.
Best part is I probably play 3-5 hours of volleyball almost every week. I freaking love it!
We have two leagues- Tuesday with rivards, Sundays with lenzens, and then this and last weekend we did for fun for a few hours too. We played 4.5 hours yesterday. I’m hurting but I’m tan and feeling athletic and happy.
Sean Colin and I played just us three against four people on a huge court and we won! It was the most exhausting thing I’ve ever done in my whole life haha.
I’m also tired cause I had to wake up at 730— trying to sell my old car lol. I have two potential buyers coming today at 10 and 1130 so getting up to clean it and get fluids topped and oil changed cause I’m nice and the car needs it lol.
I hope it sells okay! I’d like $2k cause then my down payment for my new car is covered entirely.
We shall see :). All good things coming my way at the moment! Loving it!