Music is too important to me. It’s getting to the point where I wish it wasn’t. It’s so bad that I’m really starting to feel crushed every time I think of going to a show or hearing an amazing song because even if Sean is there, he’s not THERE. He doesn’t attend or hear the songs and the bands the way I do. Barely anyone here does that I’ve surrounded myself with and I’m really regretting cutting myself off like I have lately.
Sometimes I even feel stupid or guilty about the things that are so intensely important to me.
I miss having someone at shows with me who GOT IT… Maybe that makes me really mean or really selfish. Idk.
I know I obviously dated all the wrong guys before…but that was such a big thing, even if there was all the bad stuff.
Where is the line between sacrifice and losing yourself? Bits and pieces along the way. Is that what you do when you build a life with someone? Anyone?
I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about so many things, I wish someone would just tell me so I could fucking move forward in my life.
I feel like this so often, I just don’t mention it much. I really don’t even know who I am.
Ok I stumbled across this and anyone who knows me knows I love doing the wobble. And whatttttt pops up!? Dylan O’brien (my creepy cradle robber crush) doing my favorite dance.
Pretty well I might add;) ahahah
Balmain afterparty in Paris - September 25, 2014
Dang what a crazy time for people I know! A friend was on Americas next top model up until last night and did a really good job!!
Then a guy I’ve known thru my dad for years auditioned for the voice! His audition hasn’t been shown yet but his name is mason greve. Watch for him! If he sings as well as we locals know he can, he will definitely get a chair turned!!
I’m so anxious waiting omg I’ve been waiting for him to audition for women’s for YEARS.